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第8章 被遗忘的时光(2)

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于是,我给孩子们讲道,在追求那个精灵般的女子七年的时间里,我时而充满希望,时而又失望不已,然而始终不渝。我尽量以孩子们能理解的程度,向他们解释少女身上的羞怯、敏感与回绝——当我突然转向艾丽丝时,第一个艾丽丝的灵魂在小艾丽丝的眼里活生生地出现了,以至于我有些怀疑是?站在我的面前。而当我定睛看去时,两个孩子在我的视野中渐渐地变得模糊,越来越远,直到消失,只在最远的地方剩下哀伤的面孔。尽管她们什么也没说,但我仿佛听到了他们的话:“我们不是艾丽丝的孩子,不是你的孩子,我们也不是孩子。艾丽丝的孩子叫巴尔曼爸爸。我们什么也不是,连梦幻都不是。我们只是可能存在的人物,在真实存在之前,我们必须要遗忘河边苦苦等上数百万年,然后才有一个名字。”——我突然惊醒,发现自己静静地坐在我的轮椅上。原来,我在那里睡着了,忠诚的布里吉特还守在我身边,但是约翰(或者詹姆斯)永远失去了踪影。

Children love to listen to stories about their elders, when they were children; to stretch their imagination to the conception of a traditionary great-uncle or great-aunt, whom they never saw. It was in this spirit that my little ones crept about me the other evening to hear about their great-grandmother Field, who lived in a great house in Norfolk (a hundred times bigger than that in which they and papa lived) which had been the scene—so at least it was generally believed in that part of the country—of the tragic incidents which they had lately become familiar with from the ballad of the Children in the Wood. Certain it is that the whole story of the children and their cruel uncle was to be seen fairly carved out in wood upon the chimney-piece of the great hall, the whole story down to the Robin Redbreasts; till a foolish rich person pulled it down to set up a marble one of modern invention in its stead, with no story upon it. Here Alice put out one of her dear mother’s looks, too tender to be called upbraiding.