最近在出版商的游说下,我拍了一些照片。他提醒我,我已经很久没给他新照片了,我不能总使用同样的姿势。我不喜欢拍照的过程,当我看到最近一次痛苦经历的结果后,就更不喜欢这些照片了。我把新照片和25年前的一张照片比较之后,想到我要以现在的面貌面对公众时,我的女性虚荣心开始遭受剧痛。我的第一个直觉就是“修饰”一下这些照片,虽然我从不修饰自己的脸或头发,因为我一直认为女人这么做,除了骗自己之外谁也骗不了。但当我深思过之后,我明白这其中蕴含着一个更重要的原则。
四分之一世纪的生活在女人脸上除了留下一些皱纹及不受欢迎的皱痕之外,还有更多的东西。在这段漫长的时间里,她已经饱尝痛苦与欢乐、开心与伤心以及生生死死。她经历了生存与斗争、失败与成功,曾经失去又重获信心。因此,有过这些经历,她应该比年轻时更明智、高雅、耐心和宽容。她的幽默感应该成熟起来了,视野应该被拓宽,同情心也应该加深了。而所有的这一切都会在她的面貌上表现出来。如果她试图抹去这些岁月的痕迹,同时也是在冒摧毁经验与性格印痕的危险。
我知道自己比25年前更有经验了,也希望我比以前更有个性,所以我按照原样发布了我的照片。
1. I do not_________the process of being photographed, and when I saw the_________of this latest ordeal, I enjoyed these_________less. I compared the new photograph with one that had been taken 25 years , and my feminine vanity suffered an acute pang at the thought of being presented to the public_________I am today.
2. In that length of_________she has become intimately acquainted with pain and pleasure, joy and , life and death. She has struggled and survived, failed and . She has lost and regained faith. And, as a , she should be wiser, gentler, more patient and more tolerant than she was when she was .