直到傍晚时,她才回到病房,胸前缠绕着一大片绷带,我想她一定会喜欢那个外科医生缠绕绷带时的细心与精巧的手艺。这使我想起我们的孩子还是婴儿的时候,她为他们的摇篮缝制床单。这些绷带看起来亲切又安全可靠——不像我想的那么粗糙。
灯光昏暗的房间里,充斥着强烈的消毒水的味道。坐在她旁边,我意识到我们的生命是如此的息息相关,以至于我此时也成了病人。我茫然地盯着窗外,只看到灰粉色的云彩掠过傍晚的天空,我感到心力交瘁。
差不多快七点时,她微微动了一下,听到她的呻吟,我移到床边。从桌子上的水罐里拿出一点冰片,轻轻碰触她的嘴唇,拂开她额前被汗水沁湿的灰白头发。
“我爱你。”我说。
听到这些话,她慢慢地睁开眼睛,起初,她的目光似乎有些迷茫,没有焦点,但很快,她的眼睛便变得透彻起来,她认出了我,嘴角浮现出一抹温柔的笑。
“我也爱你。”她呢喃道,眼睛又闭上了。此时的我几乎精疲力尽。回想起第一次见到她的情景,我仿佛又回到了年轻时代,回到了那个阳光灿烂的早上。她就是我的至爱。我再一次在心中对自己说道,她就是我的至爱。
爱成就自信
Butterfly Kisses
佚名 / Anonymous
My newlywed husband said the same thing every morning. "You're beautiful today."
One glance in the mirror revealed that it was far from the truth.
A skinny girl with mashed hair on one side of her head and no makeup smiled back at me. I could feel my sticky morning breath.
"Liar," I shot back with a grin.
It was my usual response. My mother's first husband was not a kind man and his verbal and physical abuse forced her and her two children to find a safe place. He showed up on her doorstep one day with roses. She let him in and he beat her with those roses and took advantage of her. Nine months later she gave birth to a 9 lb. 13 oz. baby girl—me.