Or else you can gradually come apart in London， and then flounder till you get your feet again， severally， but be clear about it. It lies between you and Katherine， nowhere else.
Of course you can't dream of living long without work. Couldn't you get the Westminster to give you two columns a week， abroad？ You must try. You must stick to criticism. You ought also to plan a book， either on some literary point， or some man. I should like to write a book on English heroines. You ought to do something of that sort， but not so cheap. Don't try a novel， try essays， like Walter Pater or somebody of that style. But you can do something good in that line； something concerning literature rather than life.
And you must rest， and you and Katherine must heal， and come together， before you do any serious work of any sort. It's the split in the love that drains you. You see， while she doesn't really love you， and is not satisfied； you show to frightful disadvantage. But it would be a pity not to let your mind flower—it might， under decent circumstances， produce beautiful delicate things in perception and appreciation. And she has a right to provide the conditions. But not if you don't trust yourself nor her nor anybody， but go on slopping， and pandering to her smaller side.
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If you want things to come right—if you are ill and exhausted， then take her money to the last penny， and let her do her own housework. Then she'll know you love her. You can't blame her if she's not satisfied with you. If I haven't had enough dinner， you can't blame me. But， you fool， you squander yourself， not for her， but to provide her with petty luxuries she doesn't really want. You insult her. A woman unsatisfied must have luxuries. But a woman who loves a man would sleep on a board.
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Look. We pay 60 lire a month for this house： 25 lire for the servant； and food is very cheap. You could live on 185 lire a month in plenty—and be greeted as "Signoria" when you went out together it is the same as "Guten Tag， Herrschaften； " that would be luxury enough for Katherine.